Christmas Extravaganza...

So we have been traveling alot the past month. We left for my parents', Austin last Sunday and then came home in the snow on Christmas Eve, just in time for the Christmas Eve Blizzard and Santa...then we packed up the car Christmas day and heading to Texarkana to Dustin's parents. We are still here and will head back Tuesday morning. I love family but I am definitely looking forward to a somewhat normal sleeping schedule. But I must say that God has given me two extremely flexible children, Brock is doing well and Chloe is happy as always. One thing I am defintley thankful for is not having to go back to school in a week, amazing how that was a heavy weight upon me.

Silence...

So I am at this place in my spiritual walk where God is calling me to listen. I have felt in the past few weeks that I am at a new place with God. Where I want to Love Him more...I kind of have been thinking on this for awhile but I was afraid of where it would take me or what I would have to do in order to be there. But a few weeks ago talking to a friend and listening to what she was learning I got tired...I got tired of living a mediocre life (don't know how to spell). So I am asking God what he desires of me...He told me silence...so at Chloe's morning feedings, after I work out or some time that I find just to myself I am waiting in silence...kind of hard to do because my mind races, I literally have to clear it all out. Words He has given me this week: Praise, Fear, Awe..I want to view my God as a BIG God, I want to love Him more...Dustin asked me this week if I feel this way because I am staying at home...I laughed, I think Kari said it best this week, my kids are my refining fire...so as I go about my business with my kiddos and family I am praising I am Fearing I am trying to be in Awe of who He is. Phil Whikham has a song that I am breathing every day "You're Beautiful" I want you Dear Savior...I want to live my life in a way that is Beautiful for you.

A snowy day

So Dustin woke me up this morning with "Christin hurry get out of bed".... I looked outside and it was snowing. Not little small flakes but big ones. Brock and Dustin immediately went outside to play, needless to say we aren't outfitted to play in the snow but Brock LOVED it. We are trying to go to Colorado for Spring Break to see snow for Brock's third birthday...I am pretty sure he will love it, just have to get the right gear.

A new leaf...

So I begin this journey of being a stay at home mom...what is funny is that this is totally my way of being refined...fine tuned...cut...this is my pruning of sorts. Not that I don't love being with my two little ones it is easy to just get caught up in the he should she should whirlwind. Last night I was reminded a something that I had forgotten. 1 Cor. 13:4, Love is patient and kind. It does not boast. More importantly it does not get irritable...so today as Brock and I did our morning devotion and read about how we are to love I see it again. Needless to say I have been speaking this scripture all day to my 2 and half year old and to myself. Thank you Jesus for provisions.

Wasting time in the hospital.

I hope we don't get billed for this...

Brock and Chloe

Before Chloe was born my prayer would be that Brock would have a sweet love for her. That he would fill as though he had a special part in who she was going to be. Dustin and I have prayed for hours that Brock would see the role in which he plays in her life. Tonight as we got ready for bed Brock asked to hold Chloe on his belly. It was a special time to watch as he begins to fulfill his role as big brother over his little Chloe.

Tomorrow...

The sun has finally come out today...the back pressure is insane...and my life as a mom of one ends tomorrow morning. Jesus thank you for this new adventure. I know there will be days that I want to cry, scream and just fall over with exhaustion but my prayer is that I will laugh, enjoy her, enjoy family and enjoy my little boy's role in her life.
Today we went to the mall to pick out a stuffed animal for Chloe, Brock chose a cow...funny:). Look for pics in the next week or so.

Being content...

So I am all wrapped up in Philippians right now. Especially chapter 4. I am waiting on Miss Chloe, not working and trying to make some sense of it. Ironic I should never really try and make sense of a situation like this. So I have been reading and dwelling on Phil 4. Being content whatever the circumstances, aligning and asking God to make my contentment his contentment. I have found myself realizing that I long for other things way too much. What if I just stayed at home? Got an easier job? What if? Would it be easier? So many different little questions going through my hormonal brain. But the truth of the matter is I have a hard time longing for the life that God has placed me in, the life that he has ordained for me. That is a lot to swallow. So my prayer today and my prayer for my sweet friends is that we may be content whatever the circumstances are that we see ourselves placed in. That God may align our hearts up with His to see and receive His satisfaction. So for right now...I dwell on that truth.

Waiting....

So I am done with teaching until Miss Chloe decides to come into this world, or when Gagnon decides to take her. Yesterday I went to the doc and I was 2 cm and 60 % effaced...more than expected. I am so thankful for having these days or day off...but as I stay at home, play with Brock and love on my small family...I kept help but feel a little anxious and excited to meet my new sweet one. # 1 thing on my list...meeting with Jesus for longer than 15 minutes...it has been a couple of crazy days.

Brock singing

When Brock was about 8 months old he got a toy that sings the abc's. We just recently found it and started playing with it. Now he wants to sing to it constantly and he is pretty funny doing it.

Brock's Art

Brock is into painting...while we were in Texarkana this summer he painted for the first time with an isel and his own paints. Dustin's mom is an artist and so she has helped guide us as to how we are to help him continue his excitement. This is the first video of him painting. He does it every other week or so...I think he is pretty good.

Brock's imagination

This weekend Mimi came into visit and they decided to go fishing in the backyard. The back story is that Brock's imagination is in full swing, everything is a fishing pole that he is trying to catch Shark fish. Enjoy!!!

Brock's first book from school

I love it when I continually get confirmation that Brock is at the right place for childcare. Jesus took care of him last year with Kari and Piper, he learned so much with them, that I was anxious to see how Twin Oaks worked out. He loves it...we are definitely having to work on the "public school" moments, like when he has just started to say "stop it", he didn't hear that from us so I am pretty sure he heard it at school, so we have had many talks about how we talk kindly to others. But we can never avoid any of that. Any some footage of his first book he made at school, it definitely made me smile and even get teary eyed which I do most often.

Cookie time

So this week was my first week back to school with students. I already love them...God has definitely put some specific children in my class this year, one having leukemia (might be a little bit of an emotional year). But if I ever doubted that this what I need to be doing for a living all I have to do is start school, I love teaching. God has provided a great long term sub, a.k.a Megan Hull.
Anyway, after my first day of school we made dinner and then made one of my favs, no bake cookies. Brock helped, of course, and then enjoyed himself to the hot cookies.
His new favorite word is "I like it" or "I don't like it" we are definitely having to work on how he says it but it is still precious. Forgive how HUGE I am...only 5 more weeks to go till we meet Miss Chloe Dell.

Brock's school.

I will definitely have to get video of his class, perhaps tomorrow for the gparents, but here is a video of him getting ready to go. He didn't even want breakfast, we told him where we were going and off he wanted to go. Dustin took him this morning and all of my emotions almost got the best of me...I had to bend over and get ready to throw up...but true to my nature I did not.
He did not take a nap during his naptime but he did lay down (boring!). He had a great day, and said bye to all of his friends. He was not the happiest person when we first got home but after dinner with Daddy and wrestling on the floor he was much better.
Tomorrow I take him for the first time.
I am already exhausted and I have not even begun school, 7 weeks till this sweet baby girl comes and so much to do...

Chloe's room the beginning

Here is video of what Chloe's room looks like so far...I definitely need to do a couple of other things.

Brock cooking...

I don't understand it but he loves to cook, he wants to help do whatever we are doing in the kitchen and for the most part he does very well...check out this video of him cooking with Daddy...I think I was busy sleeping (surprise!)

Brock's big boy bed

So many firsts this summer...one of which is switching to a twin bed out of his baby bed...here is a look at what it looks like. I am a proud mama.

Our Anniversary...

Actually our anniversary isn't until next weekend but we decided to do it on Thursday night this past week. We went to Texas de Brazil, Dustin's favorite restaurant and then stayed in The Ashton Hotel downtown. It was really nice...we woke up on Friday with creaks in our necks and backs and had breakfast downstairs in the grill. Then off to Barnes n Noble to just hang out and read. We came home on Friday during lunch but not before going bu the chiropractor for Dustin to get adjusted. It was a great, Quick getaway. I cant believe it has been 5 years. I feel richly blessed and fall more and more in love with my husband as the years go on. Here is a video with our new toy...

A note to Nana and Pops...